Greetings, I am someone who lacks in genuine friendships though not for lack of trying. It is easier to create friendships when forced to be in certain environments hence when one is a child there are less barriers to cross. Though my problem is not necessarily making friends, I understand the methods in how to acquire a friend. It is more so maintaining a friendship and moving constantly throughout my life has not helped. Also the fact that I seem to encounter people who simply do not know how to communicate. Despite me being half Finnish, I am more confident to speak in English as I was raised primarily in England and do not trust myself to speak Finnish because mistakes will occur. I am motivated to improve my language skills however this is not on the top of my priority list therefore the process is slow. Slower than I would like, hopefully this will change soon. I am one who retreats into their mind more than they can experience the world around them. My mind is home and vivid. However I do not want to live in my mind more than being present. I want to experience more things outside no matter how 'mundane' it seems. Touching the sand with my feet, watching a cloud float or touching trees i walk by. The less 'mundane' things would be visiting museums (reading every information text I can), shopping until my budget is gone or rollerskating until I am pro. I do not usually believe anything is mundane unless I am in a mood where I truly need something highly stimulating such as going to a club that plays my kind of music, riding a crazy rollercoaster or simply swimming. It is not often that I am in this mood but it does happen, and then something reckless (but somewhat safe) needs to happen. Otherwise I am mostly in a mood that is quite calm however I have such an open mind and want to experience new things as much as I can. It is unfortunate because I struggle to put myself out there. I cannot make myself do things that make me uncomfortable, and going into new environments alone makes me very uncomfortable. So going to an event designed to help others socialise and make friends is not a place I will be found in. At least alone. Though I do have a romantic partner I do not desire to do everything with him, it is not wise. Thinking critically is my one of my virtues. It has helped me navigate the darkest periods of my life. It is something that I would like the person I converse with to also have. I am also very self-aware as a person therefore I am not easily offended. It is something I would love the person I converse with to have. I would like to meet someone who is passionate, has strong morals, a purpose and recognises the reality of the world that we live in. Though I am not particular on who I talk to or make friends with, we could share entirely different perceptions of things but still be able to do activities together. The only things I truly require in connection is the ability to communicate and comprehend. I am not one who communicates with nuances hiding behind words so do not attempt to find any. I am one who communicates clearly and bluntly though I understand bluntness is not always appreciated so I can conform myself in that regard to make things smoother. It would be nice to connect with someone who understands my limitations. There are times that I do not or forget to talk consistently, it would make sense if boundaries were made to respect eachother. For example, I could typically not respond for month however a boundary was made that I should respond no longer than 2 weeks. I think it is wise for people connecting to talk about their limitations, requirements and desires in friendships to prevent potential misunderstandings. I hope I do not come across robotic. I am an analytical person with empathy who questions anything and everything. I consider myself an existentialist. I am passionate about learning new things, gaming, reading, music and writing. Connect with me :)
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